I missed this feeling, getting a hangover after a night out seems a pretty nuisance to a lot of people. It has been a while since I last drink like that, I just feel so happy and alive. Drinking does not make someone a drunkard. Sometimes, sharing a drink with your friends, family and loved ones makes the experience different with each person.
I tend to reminisce over the past and somehow, I just miss my old friends who once or twice in my life got drunk with me, laughed and cried with me, and even sang and danced with me. I miss my college friends, my college housemates, my Chem buddies, my org mates.
And I miss me. My younger self who loves to embrace change and explore new possibilities and opportunities. I was brave enough to let go and to get hurt. And even in pain I always strive to overcome all my fears and struggles. But now, I feel so reserved, frustrated and suppressed with all my emotions being kept up.
I drink because I’m happy and I trust the people around me. But, drinking makes me feel freer and bolder. It makes me express my deepest, darkest thoughts and somehow, everything I say is true.
It has been a year already, and I still haven’t decided.